i don't like these two particular
people at this moment of time.


you and you.

go away.

let's go back,
let's rewind.


disconnect and self-destruct
one bullet at a time.

the last day.



sec 3E4.
well, not entirely, just the people i
usually hang out with. The guys.
a whole load missing anyway.



<3
look at zammy. step cute. one of my
closest friends.



zam & mim.
yes, yes, it's always the three of us.
i've got more pictures we took the
last time but as you know i'm a
lazy wallaballoo, i won't bother, well,
till someone pesters me, that is. btw,
mim is my supposed husband. he's
a really cute idiot. =) i heart him!
(i sound so lame.)




nurul.
one of the most prettiest girls in class.
i'm talking about me. -_-'
KIDDING, BITCH.
-_-. whatever, she's nice.
anyway yeah, SHE NEVER PUASA
TODAY!



fitri.
ah this one. he's my scandal. you must
think i'm a slut now don't you.
no, go away. -_-
anyway, fitri's also one of my best mates,
we talk about EVERYTHING. i really
mean EVERYTHING. oh yeah,
he wears his pants under his butt.



nicholas.
he's like my elven soulmate.
pfft hyeah. he's like THE dramaqueen
of the class besides Mizi,(who's also
a guy buy the way,) and my come-
let's-go-get-a-burger-at-the-canteen-but
-i'm-only-going-if-you-pay partner.
he's great to be with when we're having
our cheerleader-mode, ditzy dumb blonde
moments. omg he so rocks. :)



desiree.
i am head over heels over this girl.
too bad saiful took her first.
danggit.



man<3.
does the less than three explain
anything?
captain of the soccer team.
one of the hotties in the class.
killer smile.
who am i kidding. -_-



hearts.
guess who and guess who.
hint:
look up and look at me.
lalala.
-------------


my last day of my sec 3 life.
finally.


P.S: I LOVE EVERYONE.
I LOVE 3E4.
I LOVE MDM MARINI.
I LOVE MAN!
ehehehehe. errr. kidding.
(only the man part. XD)

LOOK AT SHAZ'S HAIR!
LOOK AT MY HAIR!


anyway,
i know how to make
fried mars bars now.


it's goooooood! XD

some people don't think
i can cope with my sec 4 life.


once again.


once again.

here comes the next celebrity crush.



WARREN PEACE FROM SKY HIGH.


okay, his name's Steven Strait.
hohohohoho.


HOT LA.

i'm bored, bear with the long post for today.


it's so different today.
i mean, it's a saturday,
esplanade's supposed to be
crowded and NOT boring.


but tut tut.


i was FORCED to go out.
ok no. but i was FORCED to
bring the guitar along.
and i was supposed to meet
Ahmad and the gang at 6 at fareast.


okay, so i left the house at 6.15.
my fault.


BUT REACH THERE AT 8?
SHEESH.
bus rides.
yes, plural, RIDE(S).


I took 518, and the asked me to get
down after 10 stops because i didn't
pay enough. NO WAY.
oh god, the embarassment. and usually
518 would be empty, but NOOO..
humilliating me would have to
happen in a CROWDED BUS.
okay get a grip.
stupid.


STUPID.


anyway. i took another bus, 65
and for a moment i thought
it was the twilight zone.


OKAY BEFORE THAT, i boarded the bus,
and the guitar was kinda big and bulky
and it blocked some really cute chinese dude
trying to pass me to get a seat.
i apologised and he looked at me and smiled.
i think i died? okay whatever.
ANYWAY, 65 brought me to places like
Ubi, Eunos, Bendemeer, Macpherson, Geylang,
LITTLE INDIA?, i dunno where, i dunno where,
THEN town. i was chuckling to myself in horror.
well, chuckling for reassurance, but it wasn't
working so it came out abit of a chuckle-cough-cry.
i was probably putting up a show because
the banglas were entertained, they kept smiling in
my direction and all i could do was do that chuckle.
-_-


okay when i actually reached the town,
cinelesure, i called afiq, AND HE WAS
ON THE WAY TO MEET DIL. @#$!@#.
and the rest were at fareast.
-_______________________________-.
oh oh oh, there were loads of hotties.
okay sorry, i'm a girl, i can't help it.


anyway i was already feeling kinda somber.
i bought the great mushroom swiss from BK to
compensate the green tea and chips i had for
breaking fast inside the twilight bus.
and then i met dear Siti.
I think she's really nice. I like how she laughs.
She was talking to me and cracked me up when she
suddenly flapped her arms out and said, "HUG!".
And she liked my hug so I gave her another one.
I don't know, she kinda put my smile back up
after meeting her.


on my way to somerset MRT, i bumped into
Prem, Aaron and Faisal.
hahahahahwhywhenilooklikeshitheseesmehahahahaha.
shut up.


bla bla bla train ride to city hall.
and shafiq asked me to wait for them
at the control station, so okay, i did.
and then, THE HORROR.
some south african guy was eyeing me from
afar, and he approached me to ask me directions
to some taxi stand or something.
me, being the really nice singaporean,
oh shut up,
told him where to get a taxi.
AND THEN HE STARTED FLIRTING WITH ME
AND HE KEPT ASKING ME FOR MY NUMBER.
AND E-MAIL.


AKU IS HORRIFIED.


omg, he's south african, he's 22,
and his name is James, and best of all,
I DIDN'T ASK. omg, if he looked like that
lil bow wow guy, i would have given my
adress, e-mail adress, home number, i/c number,
you name it. -_- okay abit superficial,
this james guy was over the top,
i wasn't sure whether to laugh or to
remain horrified. i did a little of both
and i think i screwed my face up, but who cares.


he was asking for my e-mail halfway,
when AHMAD CAME TO SAVE THE DAY.
he came and i went, "ah, this is my boyfriend."
ahmad played along, "ah, i'm her boyfriend."
kinda stupid, if you think of it, who goes up
to someone and suddenly says, "I'M HER BOYFRIEND."
i thought you were supposed to say hello first.
anyway, the james guy kinda got scared, yeah,
he kept holding ahmad's hand and kept saying stuff
we didn't understand half the time because his
accent was really thick. ahmad was like nodding
in comprehension when he didn't know what the hell
was going on. THANK YOU.


but i've gotta give some kudos to the james guy.
the actual guts to come up and to initiate
a conversation, with a really lame pick up line,
but hey, half the guys in singapore wouldn't
be so daring. i said half, not all, so you know
who you are, stop getting offended. -_-


so after that we were headed to esplanade,
and ahmad and shafiq proceeded with
their uh, SHAMAD tribal dance, scaring strangers
away, which killed me actually.
we went to the usual rooftop hangout,
met hairul and played away.
it wasn't that crowded as usual,
and it was kinda uncanny.


met the rest after,
played for awhile,
and went home with shikin and ainn.
OH I BUMPED INTO THAT ASS OF A RUDEBOY.
i can't say rudeboy because he is shit,
and also, he was looking kinda hip-hop
today. he saw me, panicked, made a reluctant smile,
and shouted punkrock.


i stared at him and he shut up.


pfft.

THE END!

graduation.


i'm not the one graduating,
but i'm the one crying.


okay, stupid.


by the way,
i sincerely hope rohanah falls
in a hole full of lava.

so, my day was horrible right until
some reaaaaaaally homygod guy
i don't want to name,
smiled at me and said "bye Natasha."
O___O
he knows my name.
he said bye to me and not Lyn.
I HAD TO POINT THAT OUT, I'M SORRY.


that had me lasting after.


anyway, i had fun with the band,
they're great company, taking
pictures right smack middle of the
zebra crossing.


pictures.











great company.

other than that, i'd like to point out
that i am really really really gonna miss
the graduating students, friends, aqquaintences.


but i'll be missing the people i love the most.
the people that i've spent with as bestfriends.
good friends. if only i wasn't that dumb, i could
graduate with all of you and we won't be missing
anything else but school. i love you guys. and you
guys know who you are. <3

i shound too mushy. i should stop.


hearts.

you are her thought.
you are her thoughts.


she'll love you more because
you're an unreachable, an untouchable.
she hopes you'll break the next girl's heart
as severely as you did hers.
it wasn't a heartbreak,
until she lost control.


wanting you is a symptom,
of knowing you're not hers,
forever not to have.
she'll want you while she can't have you.
she'll love you & she'll destruct herself
knowing she was never enough.


never the beautiful jewellery
that you savoured and longed after.
the lies you scarred her with
lies deep, right until the next boy re-carves them.


you made her feel like she was something.
a treasure worth owning.
but when you sold that,
you brought down a wall bigger
than the one you built around her.


love meant safe for this girl.
she's unprotected from her truth now
she was never good enough.
she knows she won't be.
not for him and not for you.


because for you the sun will shine and
you will be softened by prettier girls
with prettier lives. pretty.


she'll wait for her next actor
to come & pretend to her.
knowing he wont be the actor
that you were.


she's that girl.
the one that you've long forgotten.

i don't like things the way they are right now,
but we have to live with it, cause we're human.

how i wish i was a tomato.

you and me without us.

Would you let me,
slip a few words under your door.
The first three, "I love you,"
the last five, "but I can't no more".

i re-vamped afiq's blog.


go check it out.

www.afiqhatesyou.blogspot.com

the birthday girl.




1/3 of the people.




the birthday girl and 1/3 of the people.



yay.

fara had her dream birthday.

and this is what happened after that.




the msn.

click here and save my heart. says:
eh
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
yes
click here and save my heart. says:
ape tu rudeboy independent?
click here and save my heart. says:
ape merepek tu?
click here and save my heart. says:
uuderground independent
click here and save my heart. says:
or some shit like that
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
entah..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
aku tak tahu..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
.y.?
click here and save my heart. says:
tadi pat mrt
click here and save my heart. says:
dorang kacau aku panggil aku punkrock
click here and save my heart. says:
-.-
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
eh..
click here and save my heart. says:
then i was like wtf and all
click here and save my heart. says:
then they kacau me about my size. aku tau aku gemok la please
click here and save my heart. says:
one of them kena maki from me loud loud
click here and save my heart. says:
then run away when i came forward to him
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
kental lah rudeboy skrg..
click here and save my heart. says:
aku maki die loud loud in the mrt
click here and save my heart. says:
i shouted at him
click here and save my heart. says:
lepas everything
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
tak tahu nak buat hal sendiri ke
click here and save my heart. says:
he want to pick fight with madhan and cashvin
click here and save my heart. says:
dier yang kacau
click here and save my heart. says:
madhan scold balik
click here and save my heart. says:
then he want to pick fight
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
eh..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
wth~
click here and save my heart. says:
in the end he want to say sorry
click here and save my heart. says:
fucking shit.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
kental nye rudeboy
click here and save my heart. says:
he want shake hand say sorry
click here and save my heart. says:
then he was like, aku hooligan, tak tau malunyer, pasal aku rudeboy ape..
click here and save my heart. says:
then i was like WTF RUDEBOY MACAM GINI?
click here and save my heart. says:
HOO RUDE BOY SEH.
click here and save my heart. says:
then he want shake my hand i told him i was too disgusted.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
wth~..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
rudeboy merepek..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
drop my waterface..
click here and save my heart. says:
he told fara that he wants to say sorry because i'm a girl
click here and save my heart. says:
then if i was a guy he'd want to beat me up
click here and save my heart. says:
that is so full of shit.
click here and save my heart. says:
whether i'm a girl or not, the insults right at me
click here and save my heart. says:
and whether i'm a girl or not, what scared uh?, think i dunno
how to fight uh? fucking son of a cb
click here and save my heart. says:
ok sorry.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
that rudeboy where like what.?
click here and save my heart. says:
he wear dunno like what la... like shirt inside then got black vest,
tapered pants and a hat
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
kental lah..
click here and save my heart. says:
they were puching each other in the mrt and almost hit me i shout at them
click here and save my heart. says:
pushing*
click here and save my heart. says:
the one that insulted me wore contacts and it looked like cateract.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
jgn layan..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
lain kali tarik sluar je..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
sampai koyak
click here and save my heart. says:
macamane aku tak layan
click here and save my heart. says:
he want to malukan aku dalam mrt
click here and save my heart. says:
kau pikir aku nak tak layan
click here and save my heart. says:
sheesh
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
nie smue bdk baru lah
click here and save my heart. says:
then dunno what la he kept saying he rudeboy, not fashion
click here and save my heart. says:
i was like YERRR
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
FCuk lah..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
if i were with u all..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
aku dah sound sak..
click here and save my heart. says:
fucking shit i laughed at them la
click here and save my heart. says:
they kept calling me punkrock, i was like wtf
click here and save my heart. says:
then they asked, ok, then kalau bukan, kau ape?
click here and save my heart. says:
aku dah macam hah? must be something uh
click here and save my heart. says:
..
click here and save my heart. says:
i say i nothing.
click here and save my heart. says:
wtf.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
hehe..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
nie smue cabarann...
click here and save my heart. says:
ni sume budak bodo nak mampos.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
tahu pon
click here and save my heart. says:
dorang dalam mrt tanye aku, punkrock punkrock
click here and save my heart. says:
aku tanye dorang balik budak bodoh, budak bodoh
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
haishh..
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
ko nie garang tul
click here and save my heart. says:
ye ke?
click here and save my heart. says:
apepelah. dorang merepek.
[plucktat][tri-hop] says:
HAHA

sorry for the lack of good english,
it was the rage.

THE GIRL AND HER BIRTHDAY.

my best friend is 16,
we've gone through so much,
she is cool,
i am also cool,
pfft,
she can watch NC16 stuff now,
she is legal,
pfft,
she has her I/C,
pfft,
she is my best friend,
and i love her.

she brought out the best in me,
and i hope i did too.


she is love... and 16.

*cough*

=)

LET'S SEE WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS.

your heart, our hands. <3

aku budak bodoh pasal aku
terhilang lyn peh cam.

dah berape kali aku cakap
aku budak bodo kan.


kan kan kan?

okay.

i know i'm plus-sized.
you don't need to remind me
time and time again,
and be so creative about it.

pollute.

http://why-wait.blogspot.com
cashvin.


Could You?


The lights are out tonight,
The stars our only source,
the moon has given up,
on the glow it's always forced,


and the earth's tangibly slowing,
the clouds are all cleared,
the desert's frozen,
and the artic's fully seared,


so then where do i stand,
with my bleeding heart in my hand,
you're oblivious to me.
leave me. unnoticed again.


and the world is fumbling,
and i stand nowhere,
you speak of a warm heart,
so why don't you care?


Look, I've given up,
on these things ive wished,
hoping you'd once save me,
save me from this,


cos they'll never be true.
see we were all like this too.
there's nothing i can do. to save myself.
so could you?

i need a life.


going to town without the ones
you love makes you feel sucky.






yuji was late as usual and
i taught him isotopes.


the gang was cool.
(polaroids up soon.)




i need a life.

fin.

because lyn made me. -_-


7 things that scare me :
1. it.
2. it.
3. it.
4. caterpillars.
5. it.
7. it.


7 things/orang-orang that i love most ;
1. bffs.
2. lappy.
3. potty.
4. sheep.
5. dan goes jang jang.
6. i have no life.
7. i have no life.


7 important things in my room ;
1. lappy.
2. bed.
3. dan.
4. pillows.
5. feelings on notes.
6. feelings on photographs.
7. air conditioner.


7 random facts abt me ;
1. i am fat.
2. i really like cheese.
3. i have no life.
4. MOE's made people believe
i am dumb.
5. my siblings are satan.
6. i have no life.
7. i have no life.


7 things i plan to do b4 i die ;
1. be a rockstar.
2. be a rockstar.
3. make you fall for me.
4. roadtrip in the UK.
5. own a limegreen VW minibus.
6. do cartwheels.
7. fall in love.


7 things i can do;
1. flip you over.
2. run really fast.
(provided huge dog chasing.)
3. pierce my tongue 5 times.
4. fall down.
5. try to impress.
6. pretend to listen.
7. pretend that everything's fine.


7 things i cant do ;
1. fit into nice clothes.
2. play the traps.
3. make you like me.
4. impress you.
5. not care.
6. tell you.
7. not love.


7 words i say most ;
1. i
2. still
3. get
4. lost
5. in
6. your
7. eyes.


7 celeb crushes ;
1. matthew goode. lord.
2. mikey way.
3. oliver james.
4. thomas felton.
5. chris carraba.
6. uttsada greg panichkul.
7. quinn allman.


7 peeps i love to see do this ;
1. me.
2. you.
3. him.
4. her.
5. it.
6. us.
7. them.


fin .

today is polaroid day.

exams are poo and today's a friday.
yay.

click. good girl/boy/it.

lynneh; i don't want another pretty face. says:
okay good night natasha noor. (=
lynneh; i don't want another pretty face. says:
aku tgk dp kau aku sedeh. i dunno why.
lynneh; i don't want another pretty face. says:
ok byebye

sigh. i'm sorry?

"but im sad.
the boyfriend's left all alone in school..
HAIZ."

what happened to BFFs?
or did it just become BF?

i'm sorry, but this is how
it's been for 2 months.

sigh.

i'm early today. weee.
so it's the fasting month already.
woaaaaaaaaaah.

anyway, i had my english and mathematics
exam today. english was fine.
as for maths, i stopped thinking at
question 19.

facepalm? facepalm.


♥
newest celebrity squeeze:
matthew goode.
OMG!

O HOT ONE = chris carrabba lookalike +
omgsmexy english accent + NOT WHINY
+ smexy smexy smexy omg hohoho = LIKE OMG?

watch chasing liberty.
stupid mandy moore.
she got it on with my man.
MINE.
grr.


i'm boy-deprived, and i've resulted to
celebrity crushes, so help me god.

math is the work of the devil.

(a+b)2 = a2 + 2ab + b2
(a-b)2 = a2 - 2ab + b2
a2 - b2 = (a+b)(a-b)


x= (-(b)+/- square root of (b)2 - 4ac) divided by 2a.

graph

length AB = square root of (y2-y1) + (x2-x1)

gradient = y1-y2 over x1-x2

y=mx + c

Midpoint= (x1+x2) divided by 2, (y1+y2) divided by 2

count units for parallelograms.

trigonometry fucking shit



TOA CAH SOH

pythagora's theorum (<3)

sine rule: a over sinA = b over sinB = c over sinC

cosine rule: a2= b2+c2 - abCosA.

and more shit.

drink up, beautiful.

let's see,
scenario no. 1:
me + free periods = happy.


scenario no. 2:
me + best friend reunion = uber happy.


scenario no. 3:
me + studying + syamim + burger king = insane.


scenario no. 4:
me + free sweets + luqman = hyper.


scenario no. 5:
everyone + early leaving + no studying = dinosaur mode.


scenario no. 6:
me + syamim + fara + sweets + train = hahahahahaha.


scenario no. 7:
me + them + delifrance + hairul = free food. =)


scenario no. 8:
me + fara + no money + home? = shit.


scenario no. 9:
me + fara + syamim's 70 cents = one mrt ticket.


scenario no. 10:
me + fara + one mrt ticket = sneak in.


scenario no. 11.:
me + fara + busfare short of 20 cents = shit.


scenario no. 12:
me + fara + kind auntie + un-maluness = home.

=)

you know, students posting
shit about their teachers in blogs,
and it's coming out in the papers?

listen to this:

my history teacher didn't get it on
last night and she decided to
take it out on me.

i hate mondays.
I HATE TODAY.




i miss my bestfriend.
the one who shared that
haagen daaz ice cream with me.

when you have no one to be sad about,
you're sad because you don't have anyone
to be sad about.

i am so alone.


sigh

save me save me save me.

hello, i went out with lyn.
and her bf. facepalm.


and met ahmad. walau.
and shikin who i carried.


and aziee, who can't tell
the difference between
a seagull and an eagle.


and emily which her star
bracelet thing went into
her hand and she was
asking around for plasters.


and met up with farah =),
who gave me a cookie.


and screamed when i heard
jenny singing to me. ahahaa.
she was down. but she not down
anymore. she up. -_-. no la.
we give her cookie. cookie good.
she good. alalala. jenny strong.
she down, but she can cope.
jenny is love. i love jenny. =)


and was shocked to see dil
which i owe him milky bar.


and yan, who looks good in my hairclip.


and yat, WHO WOAH GOT LIPPY
UH, SO EMO UHHHHH... and
allowed me to hug him just now.


and afiq, whose head i hugged,
dragged around and wanted to
bring home because it looked
like sheep.


yeah. i heart everyone for the
very nice company. (L) to all.




uh. i hate being alone.


sigh.

blogger on maintanance,
so i'm on notepad.

my class phototaking session was chaotic.
2 shots, first informal,
but we all decided on formal.
sheesh facepalm.-_-

the second shot was
supposed to be a funshot
where anyone could
pose anywhere doing anything.
and so everyone was
planning what to do
all noisy and chaotic,
and there i was standing in the middle,
oblivious to people calling me,
already posing for the camera,
with my hands covering my mouth.


and the camera clicked
when everyone was planning how to pose
when i was already posing.
i am so cool. oh yeah.

what.
everyone needs a little of
self praise you know.

and then my most of my
classmates were scolding me
because apparently i
didn't pose with them.
one of those rare moments
where i feel special in 3E4.


i'm supposed to be taking my Os this year.
But the school thought I was stupid and
decided to make me look for a year too.
smart move MOE, i hope you die.

oh well.

.
urgh.
prom, anyone?




"we're at the top of
the world, you and i."