and if you feel how i feel
please let me know that it's real
you're just too good to be true
can't take my eyes off you

unsure.
help.

I'll stop the world
and melt with you.

hello. the gig today was ok.
i was too sleepy.

so much for treating me afiq. -_-
i paid for the LJS meal and i stole
those cans of iced lemon tea.
you still owe me a treat. nyaaha.
and dil, you owe me chocolates,
OCK and your left cheek. lalala.

the roof top was eventful. me, ahmad
and jenny ganged up on jarell. house.
and me and afiq had a stuffed-sheep battle.
ass. he threw at my ujhdnse and i threw
at his orfnedlr. yer, go figure.

oh, i became a stall vendor because
the guy wasn't there when we wanted
to get a drink. so yeah, free drinks for everyone,
3 cans in my bag,
and i gave 2 japanese tourist people thingies
a free drink. :) they thought i was
so nice they decided to take a picture
with the gang and me. lalala.

today was a-okay again.
thanks to the very nice
company of the gang. <3

help.

"I chronicled the days you made me want to live

Memorize the way that it felt

and then I turned it into this kiss

Tonight I'm wearing my best smile

and hope to make me worth your while

I'll be the best mistake you'll ever

From the lack of sleep and the bloodshot eyes

To the nervous kiss and the butterflies

Does this make any sense at all

She said, she said

We're not sleeping, and I'm not breathing

If this means anything at all

I won't let you leave me anymore

If this holds insignificance,

I'll have the hearse follow the ambulance

No medicine exists to make my lungs work again

Let's shake and burn, like an addict

My hearings dead, only static

If I said your smiles all that mattered

Would you save my life

We're not sleeping, and I'm not breathing

If this means anything at all

Don't let me leave you anymore

Don't let me leave you anymore."

best mistake - jamisonparker.

this is television.
late night television.
scripted with percision.

hello, i skipped school today
and went kitchen utensil shopping.
yay.

i'm true, i'm true, i'm true.

i see couples everywhere and
it's making me go
"iwantaboyfriend".

pleasepleaseplease?

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine.

7 out of 14 periods free today.
bliss.

and all i was doing was doodling on tables.
dil got me stuck on drawing his display
picture on msn.
this.

okay. today was a-okay.
dum dee dum.
:]

i'll keep you my dirty little secret.

have you seen that girl,
she's the one with the curly hair.

okay. i'm supposed to publicise this.
FARTDIL IS A GREAT BOMOH.
okay? go check him out.
okay.
sorry i fell asleep like 7654345678876 times
on the phone.
quack quack.
afiq and madhan, you push me,
i throw sand at you. okay. bye.

another wasted day, counting shades of gray,
another fool's attempt to fall from grace.

hello all.
i think i am going to retain
again. and again. and again.
god damn the history teacher.

today i spent most of the time
sleeping and daydreaming.
oh, oh, i did pay attention abit.
abit.

daydreams ahead.
urgh. pretzle stomach.

even the best fall down sometimes.
even the wrong words seem to rhyme.

supercalifragilisticexpielidocious.
everything's fine.


friends. :)

you've been wonderful.
i'm sorry if i ruined your night.
but yeah. you know how it goes.
i hope you're up for chocolates.
smile. bye.

i sailed away into a gray sky morning.

nothing seems to being
going in the right direction.



isolation.

i wish you would just
die sometimes..



really.
aren't i oh so stupid?

Take all my loves, my love, yes, take them all;
What hast thou then more than thou hadst before?
No love, my love, that thou mayst true love call;
All mine was thine before thou hadst this more.
Then if for my love thou my love receivest,
I cannot blame thee for my love thou usest;
But yet be blamed, if thou thyself deceivest
By wilful taste of what thyself refusest.
I do forgive thy robbery, gentle thief,
Although thou steal thee all my poverty;
And yet, love knows, it is a greater grief
To bear love's wrong than hate's known injury.
Lascivious grace, in whom all ill well shows,
Kill me with spites; yet we must not be foes.

thank shakespeare.

i learned, i played, i sang,
i saw, i read, i sighed.

she's prettier than those fireworks,
isn't she.

"oblivious to you,
as he ever seemed,
he'd never know,
how your beauty beamed."

bruised not broken.

GRRRRRRRROAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
AAAAAAAAAARGH HUEERRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHH.
GERRRRR ROAAAAARRRRRRRRRGRRRR .
HIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRR.
ROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRR.
GRRRROAAAAAAAARRRRRR.

bite the hand that feeds.

i want you and that's final.

(the photo's bad quality. sorry.)

but then you don't.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

ahahah

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

bah.

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

i do you know...

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

errrm but u know..

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

errr

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

it has always been complicated.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

sigh.

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

yeah i know. i'm being degil like you.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

haha

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

ya

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

don't u want cens?

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

no i don't.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

madhan?

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

cens is just cute.

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

AH MADHAN?

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

APEKAU.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

ahaha

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

fiq, i want you.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

kidding la.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

errm. i want fara.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

that's how complicated it is.

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

oh god i can't believe i said that.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

sorry.

a fairy tale i purchased on my own. says:

i know.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

and the ones we like doesn't seem to like us back.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

that's how it is for the both of us.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

sad but true.

drown your sorrows in my pain. says:

im sorry.

i'm not her but can i have you

at least,

forever?

today was fun.

the fireworks were beautiful.

sigh.

i'm so happy for lynneh and zammy.
so very happy,
that they have to shut me up.

i'm going out today.
with dilly and fiq2.
:) can't wait.
it's national day today!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY YOU STUPID COUNTRY.
i love singapore. :)

EHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

NIGHT RIDING WITH JENNEH WAS FUN!
LALALALA...only that, i never ride anything.
bodo.

-_-

we plan already go here and there
then i stupid, no basikal, so jennywawawawa lent me
her mom's, and the tyre pancit -_-. haha. so we
go petrol kiosk to pump the tyres.
abeh dah sampai, we were like..
"uh, yer. how? i dunno. uh. yer. ok. hahahahahahahaha."

yer.
and then jenneh go picit some button, and the hose
went "SHOOOOOSH" and we all panic..
RE ENACTMENT:

ME: WHAT YOU DOOOO!??@#
SHE: I DUNNO!
ME: AAAAAAH! AHAHAHAHAHA
SHE: AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAH.
...yer.

then i manage to pump it, but uh..
too much uh. then uh. the thing uh.
..err.. meletop uh.
.............................

omg like paisey overload sia.
people laugh, i laugh also.
too paisey. knn. then uh
got one uncle come and bechok
i dunno, i yer-kan aje la.
he say something dunno what straight-
straight then i was like YER LA SORRY LA.

wahlau. then we go 7-11. jenneh very smart.
park basikal beside dead rat then i tell her,
she scream then she scared then she don't
want take bike. -_- yer. hahahahahaha.
funny woman. reaction slow sia. ahhaha.

I <3 JENNEH SHE BUY FOR ME CHOCOLATE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
wah fun fun fun uh. sit down bitch about stuff.
then laugh laugh like nobody's buisness
then talk so loud like whatever sia.
then got some airport woman jenny thought hantu.
ya allah. fun ah sial. come uh do again.

tak ride apepe pon night riding eh.
hahahahahahahahaha.
ni night riding ape pon aku tak tau.
tapi fun. yeyeyeyeyeyeyy!
next time must ramai-ramai.

weeee fun uh. tmr do again uh!
who want to go play basikal
at night tmr? come uh sia!
ok later got mass run pukul 8.
i see you later wowowowowow.

ok i giler. ni semue kau peh pasal uh jenneh
aaaaaaaaaaaaha.
<33333

i will be your new disease.
har har har.

my parents will be leaving tomorrow night.
for 2 weeks.





yay.

someone asked me to kidnap you.
but i want to kidnap

your



heart.

"i want you, and no one, no one else can do."
ms. yamagata is cool.

sofie, i'm sorry i almost killed you.
(har har har har har)

anyway,
i won a teenage magazine thing
and a little dog thing.
i so rock, i know.
ok no.

afiq let me punch him thinking it wouldn't hurt.
you are not strong.
i know it hurt.
(har har har har har)
you smiled again.
like woah.

i like you can i have you?
no?
ok.

sorry.

i went to school at 9.
i hate school.
i screwed up my chem test.
i hate school.
i am stupid.
i stole cheese at the fair today.
today is stupid.



i saw him smile so widely it melt me.
doesn't matter.

so long, not goodnight.

hello again.

today is the day i say hello again.

hello.
but this new diet's liquid.
and dulling to the senses and it's crude.
but it will do.

it's the fourth day of the eight month.
and i'll be just fine. i hope.

too sorry for apologies. are you?