MEEEH! the famous fat lump of lard.!

oookay..
1st thing...: MA, I'M SORRY...I DIDN;T MEAN WHAT I WROTE...
2nd thing...: MADHAN!! Wake ur bloody ass up and come back to us coz we bloody miss you.
3rd thing...: Heykal, you forgot your friends. We aren't your last resort. We're the first ones.

Ma,

I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH. DON;T SAY SUCH THINGS IN MY TAGBOARD.

LOVE,
SHASHA.

Mrs Chew,

I love you.

Love,
Nat.

DAD,

I cannot believe you would say such an evil thing. I'm not that bad. And you don't know me at all. So stop accusing me of stupid things i don't do at all. We don;t even talk anymore. Why? Coz i'm all grown up now. Hello? I'm still your daughter. Whatever. SO now what? I'm the girl who only loves herself , and doesn't love her family, doesn't love her mom, her dad, her siblings, her granny now?
Tell Sabrina crap. Go ahead. I can live without you. Well, it's already like living without you here now.
Yes. I meant that. I'm sorry i meant that Ma, but it's true. It's like i'm nothing to you Pa. Am i? I'm this big and i'm not being seen. i'm one invisible bitch am i?

Nat.

Maysze,

I am nothing now. I'm sorry if i have been mean this few days, but i don't have any mood for all these things happening around me. I'm going downhill. My friends are breaking up...going apart...going their own seperate ways. What happened to the ROCK GROUP we once had? Trips to OCH, the beach... It's not the trips, it's the people we were with, the laughter we shared...the happy memories. Madhan's gone...well, not exactly, but he hasnt been around since...i have no idea. And Shaz and Salihin want their own privacy... And Heykal is nothing now...And you... always on about heykal eventhough he's not doing anything beneficial to the rock group. it seems as thpough i'm the only one who cares. I'm sick and tired of trying to get this group back together when it's already apart...it's like fixing a shattered mirror.

Love,
Nat.

THe unattainable respect i try to get. A reason they call it unattainable.
Feelings i can't explain.
What's going on? I have no fucking idea.

SLit my wrist?
Haha.
Stare at tHe ceiling?
Haha.
Am I in Love?
Haha.
Do I FeeL like dying?
Haha.
What iS love?
Haha.

What's happening to me?

Help. I need help. Bigtime.

Help.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SCARY NENEK WHO WILL BRING DOWN A PARANG IF I DON'T COME UP IN TIME!
HAPPY 63RD BIRTHDAY!

hi, erm...
so i;m guilty of not posting for a very long time...
well, i've been busy with the rock group...urm, long story...
so..well, yesterday, watched shrek 2...haha, it was fun...
my mom treated MS and Shaz the tickets....and her cleavage....tsk tsk...
went to the beach after that...met up with madhan, salihin, baba...
and riez...and heykal...and sop..or whatever his name is....
madhan confessed something...which almost made me choke on my nasi lemak at changi...
but i just kept my mouth shut....
we had nothing to do, so we went to OCH again...for fun...but it was getting knoda boring,
although i missed the place...
oh yeah, we got chased by dogs again...i was first in running....
thank you thank you....a very big lump of fat was first in place yesterday, after getting chased by the dogs...
the bad news was, my boobs fell out.... NO DETAILS.
we went back to the beach...and i had no mood, so i went home....
end of story.

whoops...so i havent been posting since like..urm...i dunno when...sorry..
anyway...to the person who said my blog sucks...whatever...i didnt ask YOU to read it...
and uh, thanks hana...:)
well...it's been a long time.. and i can't remember lotsa stuff that happened...
hmm...let me recall...
urm...H----- AND M-- S--, S--- AND S------ WERE FUCKING MAKING OUT IN FRONT OF ME!!!AAAAAAARGH!!!
UGH!!!!...
and i think i took the worst maths paper i could ever get....
umm....and i think my room has suddenly become a hangout place...well nawt anymore coz of the complaints i
get from my parents and my grannie...
oh yeah, my grannie..
i was doing art downstairs at the void deck with heykal and madhan...the day before art exam....[we had'nt done anything then..] and it was already like about 11.30...like that...and my grannie came down and scolded me and embarassed me infront of both of them...saying 'IF YOU DON'T COME UP IN HALF AN HOUR, I'M COMING DOWN WITH A PARANG...[CHOPPER in malay..]!!!' gawd...whatever...
okay...so what happen sumore ar....??? think think think....
oh yeah... yesterday, we...the usual gang, plus firdaus, hayyan, fitri, shida, leha and later riez.. went picnicking at Changi beach... i made meatballs in the morning, but everyone ate it up at my house...haiz..
when we reached, salihin bought nasi lemak from changi village, and we ate at the beach...[i was wearing heykal's high-cuts!!!kahkahkhakha...thanks heykal!!!]
and heykal was kinda anti-social...dunno why..says he was tired...well, fine..
and then madhan, maysze, baba, shaz, salihin and me were in the water...the we walked further,and further...and further, and i think we were sumwhere in the middle of singapore and another island...
yeah..well, the tide wasnt in yet, and the floor was like shit...all muddy....i was afraid at first, if the tide suddenly came in...and we all drowned or sumthing...come on, u might never know...
and today, all i did was went to maysze's house...and shaz, madhan and salihin came....
haiz...don't expect much...it's not that eventful....