you are her thought.
you are her thoughts.


she'll love you more because
you're an unreachable, an untouchable.
she hopes you'll break the next girl's heart
as severely as you did hers.
it wasn't a heartbreak,
until she lost control.


wanting you is a symptom,
of knowing you're not hers,
forever not to have.
she'll want you while she can't have you.
she'll love you & she'll destruct herself
knowing she was never enough.


never the beautiful jewellery
that you savoured and longed after.
the lies you scarred her with
lies deep, right until the next boy re-carves them.


you made her feel like she was something.
a treasure worth owning.
but when you sold that,
you brought down a wall bigger
than the one you built around her.


love meant safe for this girl.
she's unprotected from her truth now
she was never good enough.
she knows she won't be.
not for him and not for you.


because for you the sun will shine and
you will be softened by prettier girls
with prettier lives. pretty.


she'll wait for her next actor
to come & pretend to her.
knowing he wont be the actor
that you were.


she's that girl.
the one that you've long forgotten.