oookay..
1st thing...: MA, I'M SORRY...I DIDN;T MEAN WHAT I WROTE...
2nd thing...: MADHAN!! Wake ur bloody ass up and come back to us coz we bloody miss you.
3rd thing...: Heykal, you forgot your friends. We aren't your last resort. We're the first ones.

Ma,

I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH. DON;T SAY SUCH THINGS IN MY TAGBOARD.

LOVE,
SHASHA.

Mrs Chew,

I love you.

Love,
Nat.

DAD,

I cannot believe you would say such an evil thing. I'm not that bad. And you don't know me at all. So stop accusing me of stupid things i don't do at all. We don;t even talk anymore. Why? Coz i'm all grown up now. Hello? I'm still your daughter. Whatever. SO now what? I'm the girl who only loves herself , and doesn't love her family, doesn't love her mom, her dad, her siblings, her granny now?
Tell Sabrina crap. Go ahead. I can live without you. Well, it's already like living without you here now.
Yes. I meant that. I'm sorry i meant that Ma, but it's true. It's like i'm nothing to you Pa. Am i? I'm this big and i'm not being seen. i'm one invisible bitch am i?

Nat.

Maysze,

I am nothing now. I'm sorry if i have been mean this few days, but i don't have any mood for all these things happening around me. I'm going downhill. My friends are breaking up...going apart...going their own seperate ways. What happened to the ROCK GROUP we once had? Trips to OCH, the beach... It's not the trips, it's the people we were with, the laughter we shared...the happy memories. Madhan's gone...well, not exactly, but he hasnt been around since...i have no idea. And Shaz and Salihin want their own privacy... And Heykal is nothing now...And you... always on about heykal eventhough he's not doing anything beneficial to the rock group. it seems as thpough i'm the only one who cares. I'm sick and tired of trying to get this group back together when it's already apart...it's like fixing a shattered mirror.

Love,
Nat.

THe unattainable respect i try to get. A reason they call it unattainable.
Feelings i can't explain.
What's going on? I have no fucking idea.

SLit my wrist?
Haha.
Stare at tHe ceiling?
Haha.
Am I in Love?
Haha.
Do I FeeL like dying?
Haha.
What iS love?
Haha.

What's happening to me?

Help. I need help. Bigtime.

Help.