I'm ME....so what's wrong with that?

Emotions running high...
listening to evanescence track 10 or sumthing...
reading the conversation btwn me and him.
day dreamt and let my imagination run wild...

I was very irritated by MS's bubbliness, when Madhan was trying to tell her that
she's with a complete jerk. And she was like, "oh really? No comment...what to do, gotta get used to it loh"
she said happlily. Urgh...seriously irritated May Sze...Girls with PMS...i just don't understand.
I noe i'm 1 of them, but i don't feel anything...coz ppl say i'm bitchy even without PMS.

And ------ gave me a reality check that was so painful...
Let me list it down.

-Stop eating like there's no tomorrow.
-lose weight...go and run around or something.
-Stop trying to be goth.I'll look horrible.
-Stop oogling at guys.
-With my size like this, no guy will ever look at me.never.
-Stop being bitchy.
-Control my temper.
-Stop retorting back.
-Stop being lazy.
-Stop being untidy.
-Start excersizing.
-Stop liking people coz no one will like me.
-go and rebond my hair...coz i look better.

and blaa blaa blaa...that's all i remember. time for breaking all the rules.

------, SHUT UP. JUST SHUT UP!!! WHO ARE YOU TO SAY ALL OF THIS TO ME?
SHUT UR BLOOODY MUTHAFUCKING ASS UP!!!GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.............

I'M GOING TO RETORT.

-i'M NOT EATING LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW! DO YOU EVEN KKOW WHAT I EAT? SHUT UP.
-LOSE WEIGHT? LOSE WEIGHT? I AM LOSING WEIGHT!!! ARE YOU? I DON'T THINK SO!! AND
DON'T ASK ME TO RUN COZ I HATE RUNNING!
-I AM NOT TRYING TO BE GOTH. I JUST LIKE THEIR STYLE. DO YOU SEE ME DOING VOODOO AND ACTING ALL ANTI-SOCIAL?
NO RIGHT? THEN WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
-WHY CAN'T I OOGLE AT GUYS? I MEAN GUYS CAN OOOGLE AT GIRLS, WHY CAN;T I?
I HAVE A RIGHT TO DO SO...IT'S NOT YOUR EYES....
-wITH MY SIZE LIKE THIS, WHO CARE WHETHER GUYS WON;T LOOK AT ME ORNOT?
WHY CAN;T I FIND A GUY WHO LIKES ME LIKE THIS? YOU SHUT UP!!!
-AS SALIHIN SAYS, IF I'M TOO NICE, PEOPLE WITH STEP ON MY HEAD, SO BEING BITCHY IS ME.
I'M BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY....WHATCHA GONNA DO NOW?
-I KNOW WHEN TO CONTROL MY TEMPER. YOU JUST HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO CONTROL YOUR MOUTH.
-STOP RETORTING? SHUT UP!!!!!!
-EH, SO WHAT IF I'M LAZY? AREN'T YOU?
-ME? STOP BEING UNTIDY? I JUST DON;T CARE. I MEAN, YOU'RE GOING TO THE EXTENT THAT IF I'M NOT TIDY, MY LIFE WILL BE MESSY. WELL, I WANT MY LIFE TO BE MESSY. NEAT IS BORING. I WANT MY LIFE FULL OF SURPRISES, LIKE MY MESSY ROOM, WHEN YOU LIFT UP SOME CLOTHES, YOU'LL FIND A $10 NOTE THERE...
-START EXCERSIZING? 1 WORD. NO.
-STOP LIKING PPL? XCUSE ME, WHO ARE YOU TO STOP ME? I DIDNT STOP YOU FROM LIKING ASTRI DID I?
-ARE YOU ASHAMED WHENEVER I'M AROUND YOU WITH MY CURLY MESSY HAIR?? IT'S ME! NATASHA, YOUR SUPPOSED FRIEND??

AND BLAAAAAAAAAAA.

i was so angry when he told me all of that.
are you my friend to say that?
i mean, you guys are friends with my coz of me...
why are you trying to change me soooo much?
are you guys malu whenever i;m around or what?
asking me to rebond my hair and all...
why can't i be ME?