You might not care.

Forgive me for my absurdity. If you may find any.

I cried an hour ago.

I said something happy, and then I went under

the covers, cringed and tears flowed.

I said. "The only time i'm happy in school, is during recess,

when i'm with my friends. My friends that i've been with from

Sec 1 till now.''

And then I think. Again. Do they share the same views?

Or do they think that i'm another person in their posse.

And then I wondered why I thought of that.

You see, the reason of me questioning things

that shouldn't be answered is simple.

I hate what I am going through right now.

Lonliness cannot be my friend.

I am smiling outside. I am keeping it in.

I am holding my breath.

I am afraid to lose what i've tried to keep for so long.

This may mean nothing to you.

Maybe I am dependant.

But maybe I care too much.

Maybe I cry too much.

Maybe I shouldn't.

I cannot breathe under the covers.

I am left feeling unwanted.

For now.

Please do not care.