Saturday, March 8, 2004 i painted my nails black... i wanna be a witch...someone help.....


I had the most amazing dream. This is my first dream which i actually have my crush in it.Yup Dan was in it.... Dan was supposed to go and live in England, which is a long way from Singapore...and i was sooooooo totally against that, i would'nt be abled to see him anymore. Then everyone was celebrating with him and when he saw me there, he asked me to join in the partying...and i just held his hand, and brought him to an empty place, and asked him 'Why?' and he was like 'why what?' And i said 'why are you leaving'.It was extremely sad...i could feel it... And i told him that i really liked him a lot, i told him everything...and he just stared at me..and i just walked away...and then i just watched the cruise go( it was a flying cruise...haha)and i was searching for Dan's face on the ship, coz i could see everyone's face there, which were my friends, shaz, firdaus...everyone...bla bla blaa... i could'nt find him and the ship just floated away... i just stared and i felt as if the whole world was laughing at me.... I just looked left, and i saw Dan coming towards me. I ran to him and jumped and kissed him, like the way they did in Ryan and Trista's wedding.... He actually did'nt leave because of me..... WOW.I am in love with him. I was ecstatic...happy...overwhelmed...crazy...everything... That was my dream. Nonsensical but amazing. And i woke up smiling. I was smiling all the way to the toilet,back to my room the i slept again still smiling.... Dan, it's either i really have a humongous crush on you, or i can say that i AM in love with you....